I need to vent! I unintentionally got pregnant and at first the father completely flipped out and tried to pressure me into an abortion along with his mother. She even called abortion clinics to find appointments for me. I’m almost 30 I can’t believe I even have to deal with that. I stood my ground and said no. I also don’t appreciate his mother whom I was very close with overstepping her boundaries because “he’s not ready”. Well I wasn’t either but it’s not something we can just undo in my opinion so I’m going to face my responsibilities. I’ve also told him one time after I took a plan B, “hey we’ve got to be safer, I don’t want to take this again and I could never get an abortion so let’s change this”. So he was aware of how I felt on everything. I was never casual about it saying I wouldn’t oppose an abortion.

We’re adults, have good jobs, and were together for over a year, and knew each other as friends for 3. He told me he didn’t love me because I’m carrying his child and he doesn’t want it and I’m making him have it. He then left me and I let him go. I can’t force someone to be in our lives.

Then two weeks went by and he apologized to me and I was very reluctant to forgive. But I thought for the sake of our child I will give him one more chance to prove he means it. Well three weeks went by and at first he was so loving and attentive and said “we’re a team” and he always checked on me to see how I was doing. When I found out it was a boy and I told him he was happy, or so I thought. He took me on dates, and always wanted to cuddle me and constantly said how much he loved me and that he made a mistake. A few days ago I could sense something was off. His sweetness was gone and his sarcastic and rude nature was back. He didn’t want to see me either. Today he told me over text that he never loved me again and he lied this whole time to try and make me think he was trying. He then broke up with me over text. I just don’t get it. We didn’t have to get back together, I was getting very used to the thought of raising my child alone. I don’t see why he would want to get me back only to leave me again. I told him that this is the last straw that for the sake of me and the baby I can’t go back and forth. He said ok and he doesn’t want to force it.

I’ve accepted I’m going to be a single mom to a little boy ❤️ and that’s ok. It just sucks to be toyed with especially when pregnant. The person I fell in love with was so kind and loving, it’s like this has turned him into a different person or shown his true colors. I hate that I’ve been crying all day. I never pictured myself bringing a child into the world this way but I keep telling myself everything happens for a reason and I’ll be ok.