12dpo with a stark white negative

AF is due on Thursday. I’ve always shown positive by 10dpo so I’m sure I’m out for the month. I’m just over it. I know they say there is still a chance but I don’t feel confident at this point. No noticeable symptoms. Except today I’ve had more snot-like mild light yellowish/clear discharge which I’m normally dry until af. Just want to cry if anyone wants to join my pity party.