I was with my now ex for 4 & 1/2 years.. these past couple of months he’s been so weird and I didn’t understand why. His temper has been horrible and he’s just always angry with me, I did think maybe there’s someone else in the picture? I’ve even asked him and he’d deny and just said he doesn’t know what’s going on, for any little thing he’d pick a fight with me and it made NO sense to me. I even made a comment it’s like he’s doing everything to push me away. Well towards the end of December it was constant arguing from his part, so controlling and ugly. In January I had a gut feeling something wasn’t right and I had a gut feeling there was someone else in the picture and I just ended things because he actually got physical with me. It’s been about 2 weeks ladies.. 2 weeks. I checked his social media first time since everything and guess what? He posted a picture of a ultrasound that he’s going to be a dad.

I’m not pregnant.. I’m sure as hell not pregnant. I’ve been throwing up, sobbing just completely broken. Which means he’s been seeing someone else when we were together. Which means this was probably why he was so different with me. I hate myself right now, I hate my life right now. Why? Why me? I feel like trash .. Why did he have to do this? Why couldn’t he call things off instead of cheat and have a whole kid and take it out on me??? He was disrespecting me, angry at me as if I was the one who stepped out of our relationship.

He’s blocked on everything now.

I just can’t believe this, feels so unreal ladies. Why is this happening, why did this happen. I feel so worthless

I’m 28, he’s 30 and we always talked about kids but said we’d wait because we weren’t ready and I see this...

Edit- I keep checking his social hoping it’s a dream, how do I stop. At this point I’m torturing myself