Change of heart?

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Been TTC for #2 for 7 months now on our own. Finally went to the doctor for clomid and picked up our prescription.

But it took until cycle day 49 for my period to start, and now I'm having a change of heart. I really wanted another baby but I think through all the disappointment I convinced myself I want to wait. Like wait a year kind of wait...

Anyone else do this to themselves too? I'm wondering if it's a phase and if I'll snap out it? Thanks for your help!