I’ll be having a c section in April. This will be my 4th c section. This is the first time almost everyone has something to say about it. Some understand why. A lot of people seem to think that I’m taking the “easy” way out. This is not the easy way out. I won’t be able to life anything heavier then 10 pounds for 6-8 weeks( that’s how it was with my last 3), I’ll be in a lot of pain for 4-6 weeks minimum then have some pain after that for a while my stomach will most likely be numb for a few months. I usually end up staying in the hospital for 4 days due to negative reactions to the all meds they will have me on. Yes, I tried to have a natural birth with my first baby. She was 5 pounds 10 ounce 16.5 inches and got stuck in my cervix and almost passed away from all the complications. I wish I could have a natural( pushing without pain meds) type of delivery. Thats the way my mom and I planned my first she passed away before I had my first kids. So as it is I feel bad for that plan not working out. But now all these people have me feeling even worse about myself.

If you read this far thank you for reading. I guess I just needed to vent. I’m 28 weeks and beyond emotional right now to the point I just lay in bed and cry most of the day.