I’m not really sure how to start with this but, I just got back with a previous long term partner after about three years of being broken up. I’ve struggled with depression since I was fifteen and am medicated pretty heavily due to the fact. The meds I’m on makes my sex drive incredibly low, but that’s besides the point. Anyway, I slept over his house last night and it was a relatively good night, he had stuff to do so I sat in the same room as him and just read a book (The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt, so good). We didn’t have sex because I’m on my period, not that that’s stopped us before but I didn’t necessarily want to. Anyway, I woke up this morning around 11 and he was already awake. As soon as I woke up, he started touching me and making a move, barely letting me wake up or saying anything before he made his move. He also has personal space issues in that he’s constantly hanging off me and wanting to cuddle when we’re hanging out. This usually doesn’t happen in public, but. There was a situation recently where we slept at my apartment and we were laying down, and he was touching me and I kept pushing his hand away but he would go right back to touching the same area. I’ve been sexually assaulted before, and it’s not been traumatic for me in the bedroom, except when I’m making clear indications that I don’t want to be touched/have sex. We talked about it afterwards and he apologized. Anyway, so this situation happened this morning. Like I said, I barely woke up and he asked me if I had a tampon in (I did and had just put me in, so I wasn’t about to take it out while completely dry and then have sex). I said no and after a short while, he asked me if I would give him head. I had JUST WOKEN UP, had barely gone to the bathroom and this was the first thing on his mind. I replied with, “can we maybe have coffee first? Breakfast?” He replied by saying “just for ten seconds, can you put it in your mouth? I’m soooooo horny.” So I’m feeling guilty because of this, so I reluctantly agreed even though it was VERY clear I didn’t want to. I gave him head and he came and afterwards, I quickly went to the bathroom. I felt weird afterwards, and the first thing he says is “oh wow, you can’t even pretend like you liked it, eh?” Which was a joke but, just solidified that he knew I didn’t want to give him head. I didn’t say anything and basically shortly thereafter, I asked him to take me home. He kept saying, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry” and I didn’t want to start a fight, so I kept quiet. Now I’m at home and I feel like the whole thing was incredibly selfish on his part. I’ve been on the verge of tears all morning. I don’t know what to do. Any advice would be so so appreciated.