So, long story short, I had to change doctors at the beginning of the year because my doctor was going on her own maternity leave. I had limited choices, and although I wasn’t super comfortable with him, I chose a doctor that has been delivering for 35+ years.

I went to my 37w check up today and had my first cervical check, a little uncomfortable but not bad. I am completely closed. Not trying to be discouraged but I have been having a lot of BH and a lot of minor contractions. Lots of pelvic pain and stretching. I thought that maybe, just maybe, that would mean I am getting somewhere. I mentioned some things that have made life difficult lately and he seemed to brush each one off as no big deal.

I just feel like every day has become a struggle. I wake up and can barely walk because of the hip pain. I have a migraine behind my eyes almost every day. I feel sick and exhausted all the time. And I feel like I am constantly having contractions that make me breathless and nauseous. So to have him brush these things off and then tell me I am completely closed is so depressing.