My "Fiancè" who I have Been with for 5 years continues to step out on me. Granted we dont have alot of sex because im the one ALWAYS working over time & just too tired to even cook when I get home. He does have issues with depression & anxiety... But its no excuse to cheat. Hes done this over emails, craigslist, kik & other trashy sites. Hes messaged women, & men- recieving/sending pictures & dirty messages. I moved across 3 states with this guy just a year ago, when i knew he had stepped out before... I still moved anyways thinking shit would be different. & well karma has really done me dirty. Ive signed on vehicles for him that are more expensive than my own, taken out a shit ton of credit, & most bills are in my name. I havemt trusted him since the first time which is why i dont open myself to Sex with him 24/7. I dont feel enough. When i caught him this last time he tried to hide it again & refused to log back into his kik. Unfortunately I am in my early 20s & have no way to get back home unless i sign another lease with some one to save up & go home. Issue being-- i only know him here & only trust him to come up with rent versus the people I've met here...

Caught in such a hard place & really just meed some one to talk to.

Im being that stupid girl & signing another lease because i dont have much choice but I do love him & dont want to be the crazy girlfriend who has all your passwords. But he has pushed me to the point of going there if we sign another lease.

He also wants to do counsuling which i think is absolutely pointless because at this point i just resent being dumb enough to love him still.

He said the last time he cheated 20% was just resentment towards me.

No hes never actually met anyone in person or done anything physical because I have caught it before that point... But that hurts worse.

I have been completely loyal & he made me feel like shit after I let him go through MY phone also when HES the one who cheated!! & go figure he found nothing but friendly conversations with my friends including the males! Even with an ex who slid in my DMs- yeah i knew what that was & still replied to him because he has a girl hes Been with just as long... But i know he cheats on her for a fact. & i still stayed in my lane knowing he obviously hit me up for a reason!

Also found he has content locks on his phone & uses fake emails to do this shit with.

Tired of being lied to, using depression as a scapegoat when he has made me beyond depressed with this shit.

Really screwed & cant wait to get home.

Please send reinforcements ladies. I need yall

At this point I am just looking into the skies for help & sanity.

Mountain drives & hikes help.