I had my baby dec12

It’s been great felt happy , but when I gave birth I took care of her that night hurting from stitches while I did have a traumatic birth as I felt everything. The next day I was tired I took a nap and he took care of the baby I than woke up and he was saying how he took care of the baby , basically rubbing it in my face we argued those 3days at hospital. I cried felt hopeless, a week passed we go to Walmart got into it bc he likes things done a certain way he than left me their . Cold , still hurting from my stitches , I felt sad , wanted to end my life but saw pictures of my daughter and knew i couldn’t so their I am sitting cold thinking. He than picks me up and we talked I than cried really hard as he proceeded to ask me “ tell me what’s wrong” I kept it in and kept crying . Since than I realized my eating is just off , I’ll eat only 1time a day I won’t eat until 8 at night just 1 meal . Or as of today haven’t ate at all the whole day , I’m emotionally tired , and physically their is nights he’s laid up next to me and my baby by me too and their I am silently crying.. , he doesn’t help me with the baby and his reason “ I work I’m tired u don’t do nothing but stay home” I wish it was that easy . I ask for help “ can u feed her “ him “ no u do it “ I have to yell at him to do it. But when it comes to someone being around as his mom or anyone I ask ONCE and their he is doing what I asked , the other thing him and my mom don’t get along so I haven’t spoke to her when I bring them up he gets mad , I’m going through a lot emotionally that he doesn’t get how sad I am , that also when I yell at him I just want to cry. But as for his family he wants them over and it bothers me so much how I don’t get why they fee the need to kiss my daughter , I have nephews and never once do I kiss them , I don’t get it and his reason “ this is the first baby in this family “ also bc he has no family here but still , and than his family just does the most. I find my sad wanting to just leave , leave him and here his mom saying and him “ once she leaves call the police tell them she took the baby and that she doesn’t live their anymore” they do ENTIRELY to much how many people break out and “call the police “ for leaving 🤨, wtf are they going to do bring me back and their so many times we just argue that he’s like “ one day I’m going to just hit u “ I’m honestly so tired . I just need advice, do I have depression does it sound like it ? And is it always rocky moving in with someone , we moved in 1month ago , dec 3 is the day I than had my baby dec 12 , I also breastfeed it’s why I make sure to eat at least once. Bc I know if I didn’t I would for sure just not eat, also I was 170 pregnant now I’m 145 so it goes to show how less I eat