My husband and I have been trying for over 3 years now, we have faced so many losses, and we are still fighting for the family we yearn for.

I scroll through my newsfeed on Facebook and all of my friends have got their own families now including the ones that never wanted them. Including a few who have 'not been trying' and yet have managed to have 3 babies in 4 years.

I hate myself so much for getting so upset and angry that people seem to have no issues getting pregnant and then abuse their body while they are pregnant, by drink, smoking and taking drugs are still being given the opportunity to have children again and again.

Is that really fair?

I have given up so much and I'm still not allowed the one thing that will make my husband and I completely overjoyed, overwhelmed and whole.