Birthing jitters 😓

I’m 39+4 and had my first cervical check today.. I normally deny having them done, but due to some increased pressure I started having I decided to have one done. Holy freaking 🐄 it hurt so bad. I don’t know if the amount of pain I felt was normal. I have very small anatomy and I was completely closed.

Needless to say it has me terrified to be touched again like that, much less give birth. I normally take pain like a champ but I am so sensitive when it comes to my vagina that I am officially scared.

Have any of you had extra painful exams? Does it get any easier lol