Well! Here’s what I’m upset about tonight (-:

this has been bothering me for a while and I have no idea what to do about it. my boyfriend hates my hair. he likes long straight hair. my hair is short-ish now and curly. I blow it out often but the fact that he thinks my hair is “nappy” bothers the hell out of me. my hair isnt nappy. i have really nice curls, but because i’m black its automatically nappy? whenever i wore my hair down and curly i felt so free but he would make comments saying i looked like whoopie goldburg or oprah. nothing wrong with those women of course but to my white privileged boyfriend making fun of minorities is just a hobby.

He seriously tries to laugh everything off as a joke and it’s just not funny. it’s not me not being able to take a joke. its just him being rude, uneducated and disgusting.

it makes me cringe.

I don’t ever say anything because i don’t want to make it a big deal, but it is!

its hard to bring up his racist remarks because he truly believes he’s not racist.

No he doesnt hate black people, he likes and loves lots.

but the ignorance.. my god.

i don’t know what to do anyway.

i used to be happy with myself until i got with him.

i feel pressured to have long straight hair, be thin, and bubbly. im tired of staying inside because i’m afraid to get tan and get any darker.

i’m tired of my boyfriend making jokes about things that i cannot change.

i feel so worthless sometimes.

he truly thinks white qualities are better. so i just don’t understand why he’s with me.

he says that if we have a kid he hopes that it’s not black and that the baby will have hair like him.

im hurt by these things. what’s wrong with me? my hair? my skintone?

he always says that ‘black’ hair isnt pretty.

im turning 19 in like 3 days. why am i with someone so trash.