I am by no means seeking sympathy, however, I feel that pregnancy and infant loss is kept quiet by a lot of people like we aren’t supposed to talk about it... well I’m here to sound the alarm. It’s real. So many of us experience it and I’m not scared. I went through a horrible thing, and I feel like talking about it is therapeutic for me, maybe not for everyone!

I am scare to death of having another ectopic in my left. The doctor is telling us <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> may be the best route to go. Has anyone had <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> after an Ectopic????

This is the message I posted to my Facebook so my family and friends can be understand if I am an emotionless zombie...Sorry it’s so long...

There isn’t always a happy ending like most want to believe. As some of you know, my husband and I have been doing fertility treatments to get pregnant, since my body just doesn’t seem to want to work right. This has been going on for 3 years! We competed our last cycle at the end of December and on January 13, 2020 I took a test and found out I was finally pregnant, after 3 years of trying, 7 rounds of medications/shots and 2 surgeries on my pelvis. Our pregnancy started abnormal, with my HcG levels not rising normally. But they finally started to become normal and we scheduled our 1st Ultrasound for February 4, 2020. Our ultrasound this week was not positive. They doctor has made statements like “I don’t like what I see for how far you should be” and “I’m not seeing much of anything”. There was no “yolk sac”, there was nothing with a heartbeat. We were told to have more labs drawn and they would determine where to go from there. My HcG levels came back normal for 7 weeks gestation. So they referred me to Akron Children’s Maternal Fetal Medicine. MFM was amazing. But the doctor came in the room and told me exactly what I expected. “Aimie, I’m so sorry but your uterus is empty, we don’t see anything”. They told us my embryo must have implanted somewhere outside of the uterus. Fast forward, my fertility doctor called and said I need an Emergency operation to rule out an Ectopic Pregnancy. So I went in today, the did I final “Hail Mary” Ultrasound to make sure there was no embryo in my uterus, there wasn’t. Still empty....

I told the doctors I had an intuitive feeling I had an ectopic, she said she thought maybe a missed miscarriage with me not passing the tissue. 2 hours in surgery and ...I was right, she was wrong. My embryo implanted in my right Fallopian tube and they had to remove my tube due to the damage it caused.

I have never cried so much in my life. To know I almost had my little miracle baby. That it was there, growing inside of me the whole time, finally giving me hope and happiness. Experiencing all of the pregnancy hormone joys most women know about. Planning things in my mind like telling my family and friends and embracing this amazing miraculous moment in time.

It’s all crashing down on me. There is no longer happiness and joy, but sadness and hopelessness. Now my chances of getting pregnant, even with drugs are even smaller, and I still could experience a second ectopic and lose my other Fallopian tube.

I’m not the only one who this effected by this. Family and friends who knew, yes, but Patrick is broken as well. He wanted this baby just as much as I did and he is grieving just like me.

So, people may ask why I am sharing something so personal. And I could care less about negative opinions, if you don’t like it “change the channel”. I would rather share and people hear what happened directly from the source, than people spread rumors or have false information and make assumptions.

Patrick and I are grieving our loss at home with each other and due to me having emergency laparoscopic surgery, we aren’t really wanting guests at this time. If you want to send a kind message, especially to him, please do for those who have his number. He could definitely use it!

To all my family, friends, in-laws and co-workers! Thank you for all the love and support. Pray for us to catch our rainbow baby 🌈🍼💔, someday, somehow!

-Love always, The Thomas Family