So 6 year ago at the end of march my husband(bf at the of 5 years) split. We had been fighting alot over alot of things, my trust issues being one of them. Looking back over those first 5 years he never gave me a reason to not have trust in him. We was living together after 6 months of dating. He talked to me soon as he left our house until he got to work and talked to me on the way home. Days off were spent with him. He let me see his paystubs every week and the house added up. Hes a coal miner so its not like he can do anything while at work. Anyways back to us splitting. When we split he told me to move out so i moved in with family. After a week of being split we started talking again and got back together but wasnt living together. He was very adament about not living together. We spent almost everyday together however. Anyways there was a point in time i had found he was on a dating site while we were split. Dumbass never changed his password to one i wouldnt know. So i see this girl on their where they was messaging back and fourth. Anyways i let it go because we were split. Well the whole time i wondered if he had slept with her and if things went further. He denied it said they didnt. Well tonight for some reason something pops on our email saying about google maps timeline. Well dumbass me checks and goes back to when we were not living together. There was one weekend in may and one weekend of june 2014 where he spent the weekend where this girl lives. My heart sunk. I just knew what had happened. And now im devastated because were together at the time he was there.

Hes at work right now and its 3am and everyone is asleep. I dont know whether i should confront him or not. I love this man to death. Hes a total different person now then what he is then. I find myself justifying why he didnt tell me. I think maybe he was scared to tell me because he knew it would kill me and id leave. I just dont know what to do. I have no reason to think hes cheating now. As i said hes a total different person when we got back together and wasnt living together he barely talked to me when we werent together, we spent the weeks together but very rarely the weekends, he hid his phone from me, he wouldnt let me see his paystubs(looking back it should of told me what my brain was thinking wss real). That went on from april to the middle of june. I gave him an ultimatum in july 2014 telling him if by christmas things were not different id be leaving. Things changed we started living together, he started calling me again everytime he went to work and came home, when he wasnt at work we were together, i had the password to his phone, he never hid it from me, he was a total different guy(one i fell inlove with all over again). Sorry bout this but i have noone to talk to.

Update

So i sat down with him and had a talk with about it. He told me that they never slept together and that it was nothing. I started crying. He grabbed me and hugged me. Ive brought it up a couple times since and he dont get angry. He said he understands and that i need to talk through it. I have had severe trust issues that have gone on for years way before him. I still dont know what to think. The part of me that trust who is he is now knows he wouldnt cheat but the part of me who knows the type of guy he was then isnt sure. My family loves him and back then they had hard feelings for him not because of me and him but because the way he was acting. I know now he literally has no chance to cheat on me. He chooses to spend all his time off with me, he chooses to give me all his passwords, he chooses to cal me on his way to and from work. I know all this but then in the back of my mind im like am i and idiot. Yea he may not be cheating now but what if he did then. Then i ask myself is it worth losing what he have built now. I think im gonna look into counseling not only for us but for me personally.