I have been with my boyfriend for 5 years.. we have a 2 month old daughter together and up until 2o’clock this morning he was my whole world. He has been acting funny with his phone, suddenly working late, saying he’s running somewhere but stays gone for 2-3 hours, lies about his phone being dead when I need to use it.. Finally last night we were laying in bed and he was asleep and I got a burning feeling in my gut to look at his phone. Usually I’m against going through your SO phone but I had to do it. I got up, unlocked it and went straight to messages. The message at the very top was from a 16 year old girl that he works with.. I unplugged his phone and went to the bathroom and locked the door so I could read their messages. I found out they’ve been messing around for 2-3 weeks, he sent pictures of OUR DAUGHTER to her, she has been driving his brand new truck I helped him find around while he was at work, and she had no idea we were still together.

I instantly felt nauseous and started shaking as I read the messages between them.. all the late nights at work, having to randomly “run a few places”, staying gone for hours turned out to be lies. I got to the part of him talking dirty to her and I snapped.. i texted her and told her who I was, how long we’ve been together and some of the lies he told me while he was with her.. I stormed into the room and jerked the blanket off of him and said “what the fuck is this” and he just stared at me for a few minutes like a dumbass. I sat down on the opposite side of the bed and kept scrolling through.. He got up and snatched the phone out of my hand and had the audacity to say “You’re really going through my phone while I’m asleep man” which naturally pissed me off.. I said “Maybe if you didn’t act so sketchy maybe I wouldn’t have been tempted to go through it. I asked him if he has had sex with her and he didn’t answer.. just stared at the wall which made me snap.

I told him to get the fuck out.. that I would bring him all his stuff tomorrow and leave it at his moms house for him. I told him he broke our family and I’ll never forgive him for it. My heart is broken and I don’t know what to do now.. I messaged the girl on Facebook to make sure she gets the truth just Incase he tries to lie to her.. He’s 20 years old and was/is messing with a 16 year old girl.. it makes me sick. It’s illegal in our state and honestly she looks like she’s 13 years old.

I can’t deny, I want to pretend it never happened, I want to pretend he’s still the same man I fell in love with, I want to pretend we’re still a happy little family.. but I can’t. I can’t even look him in the eyes without my stomach knotting up. He has broke our little family and he has broke my heart.

Will I ever move on from this? Will I ever be able to somewhat forgive him for betraying me? Will I ever be able to look at him again without feeling sick to my stomach?.. I will NOT be with him, but I know I’m going to have to see him often due to our daughter. I’m so lost..