Well beta officially came back today. Second failed FET with hatched pgs normal perfect embryo. I'm devastated. I cant believe this is happening again. I cant believe the time I've lost. And the money. I might as well be lighting money on fire; at least I wouldn't have to stab myself in the a%? every day. All this money just feels like I'm being fined for being heartbroken. Not only has all of this effort not resulted in a single positive test, I also have no answers. They all say we're in perfect health and theres no reason we should even need any help conceiving. Every failed treatment cycle is explained to me as being maybe just a fluke, just bad luck. Across 3 doctors in 2 clinics. How unlucky could I possibly be? It feels like no one can help me and nothing ever changes.

And now off to try to keep it together so I can give my husband a glimmer of a happy birthday today. Just awful.