Hi, so I’m a senior in high school and I’m 17 years old. Recently I had a thing, or at least I just called it that with a guy. We started talking back in September, and we went on one date, and then he kissed me and asked me to be his gf. I couldn’t bring myself to say yes, so I told him I had to think about it. A week or so later he took me out to lunch and told me he couldn’t date me because of theatre (we are both in theatre at school). I was like ok that’s understandable. That night I got a call that my best friend who graduated just last year was in hospice, and sadly the next day he passed. The guy I was talking to went to the viewing with me and became my rock in these hard times. Then I went to the zoo lights with him and another friend of ours (he comes in later in the story), and we had a really fun time, and then the guy I’ve been talking to drove me home and TRIED TO KISS ME, I obviously said no, because I’m not going to kiss him again unless he wants to actually try this. We continued to talk and then I talked to his sister the next week and she told me he wasn’t honest with me. I called him and he told me he still has feelings for his ex. This made me upset and so I called our mutual friend and cried on the phone for 4 hours because I was so hurt. Also mind you this whole time he’s been telling me that he loves me and how amazing I am and all of these things. Anyways, a month or so passed and we are now in January, so him and I went to the winter dance together (my school calls it cotillion). We danced and our mutual friend came with us and it was so much fun. That night we dropped off our mutual friend and then me and the guy talk. He told me that he was happy that we were friends, and then asked me if I still liked him, and I did I still had feelings for him and he still liked me too. So then he asked me if we could try this, and then he kissed me. And then right after he kissed me he said “why the hell did I just do that, I told you I was ready, but I’m just not”. I didn’t really know how to react, but I don’t get mad easily so I just told him it was ok and I understand. He then drove me home and said sorry a bunch of times. Then about 2 weeks later he said he was sorry for leading me on for 4 months and that we should just be friends. This entire time I was talking to our mutual friend over the 4 months and he kept telling me I didn’t deserve any of this. Anyways, I now realize I have feelings for the mutual friend, who is best friends with the guy that led me on. So do I tell him that I have feelings for him, or should I not because of the guy that led me on, because him and I are still friends, and they are best friends.