And I hate this feeling. We have been married for 2 years and together for 6 years. I always bring it up to him and it seems like he ignores the topic. I swear the only time he brings up having children is when we are making love “I want to put a child inside of you” or when we are arguing “this is why I don’t want children”.

I’m so fucking confused & in the dark. I feel like we are financially stable & although we have ups and downs we always talk it through & forgive each other at the end of the day.

I watch so many people around me having babies and I want that too. I feel like I did it the right way by going to college, establishing a career, getting an apartment , & getting married.

I feel like he has a fear that his children will experience some of the trauma he experienced or that he will pass on toxic traits/habits down to our children. For example, he was raised in a toxic abusive environment& when he gets the littlest frustrated he yells and I correct him all the time and tell him that he can speak without yelling & then he catches himself... idk y’all. I cant wait forever...