this will probably be a long post so get ready.

so i was talking to this boy for about a week or two and then he told me he lost feelings for me because he THOUGHT about another girl. i told him it was okay and unadded him. later that week he added me again and he told me he was sorry and i said it was okay and that you can’t help your own feelings. this was around october of 2019. i think we had a couple just quick conversations in between then and november well then sometime in november i typed a paragraph and he wouldn’t answer me and then my friend tells me that he told he that i was obsessed with him and i most certainly am not i think i fell in love with him though. then i lost feelings for him because i hate the thought of being obsessed with someone. then on new year’s <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> we were talking about how we both feel so lonely around that time of the year (meaning like christmas time and stuff) and he said he could’ve had me but he messed up. so i fell for him again, i posted a yolo on my snap that said who has feelings for me and someone anynomosly said the boys name. then someone said on a yolo he had posted that everyone was telling me he had feelings for me and he said he didn’t and he only thinks of me as a friend. then i find out he’s dating this hoe who always has a boyfriend and a couple days ago was his birthday and i told him happy birthday and then we snapped throughout the day and that’s pretty much the whole story i think but i just really like this boy and i honestly think i love him and i keep getting mixed signals from him and i get my hopes up and i don’t know how to get over him. i can’t help but think about all of the promises he gave me when we where talking and all that he broke. valentine’s day is coming up and i’m not ready for that bc i guarantee you that hoe is gonna post something about him on her story. please give me some advice or something. what do you think i should do, i can’t keep living like this. edit: i’m pretty sure the hoe is just dating him to make her past bf jealous and i can’t tell him how i feel bc he’ll think i’m obsessed with him which i am most definitely not.)