Finally admitting it

I am married for the second time. It’s been wonderful, especially in comparison to my first. My husband was emotionally abusive and was just a jerk all the way around. It worked out for the best. It really did!

Here is the thing though. I did not use birth control for that three years and never got pregnant. Not once. I have hypothyroidism, a 90% chance of endometriosis (due to family history and period history, have not had surgery to officially diagnose).

I’m remarried, great, amazing guy, have had every chance of pregnancy and nothing.

I have voiced my concern with having issues with infertility because of my previous marriage and everyone says “that was just God protecting you”, “it was best for you not to” “don’t say that, it was just because God knew what was going to happen”. I am a religious woman and do agree that it was for the best, but I am tried of everyone dismissing my fears.

First, why can’t people just talk about infertility like it is real, because it is. Why does everyone dismiss me because I’m “young and healthy and will be just fine when the time is right”?

Second, three years and six months of nothing means something, right? Even my doctor was shocked I didn’t get pregnant, but did nothing further...

I’m finally admitting this to someone who will not dismiss me or claim that it was just the wrong time.