I’m just over it all 😓

So back story my husband and I have been married 3 years and we have a 6 month old. We’ve also been together for years since high school so of course we’ve had our ups and downs.

Well a few months after we got married was a HUGE down I found out my husband was going on online websites texting other women literally while I was in the bed next to him. It was disgusting and I was crushed. We had just moved away from family due to his work and I think just my pride of not wanting to move back was a big factor in me staying. Pretty much most of 2018 I was depressed and lonely living like a zombie constantly paranoid.

During that time he was always trying to make things better and I did “forgive” him but still wasn’t there with him mentality. I found out I was pregnant and that was another nit factor in wanting to make things better. We went to counseling throughout my pregnancy and honestly since then he hasn’t given me any reason to lot trust him. He works his butt off to be a great dad and husband.

I went on his phone because I do that periodically and just recently I found that he has a random woman on Snapchat. Their name is literally “Rando” I have no clue who this person is. It’s just weird. Idk I’m just in a weird place after being in such a good place and now that we have our son ughh I just don’t know what to do. I feel like a part of me definitely still hasn’t healed from what he did before I’m just emotionally drained