This is my first post on here but I thought maybe this would be a good place to get advice. I am 20 years old and have been having sex since I was 16. I am now in a loving 3-year relationship with my boyfriend. When I was younger, I had a very high sex drive, usually higher than my partners. About 2 years ago I got really sick and spent a couple weeks in the hospital but they could never figure out what was wrong with me. After that, my libido decreased so much. My boyfriend and I now have sex maybe once every two months? And when we do have sex, it’s usually painful for me and I end up bleeding afterwards. I hate having a low sex drive now and I feel so bad for not giving my boyfriend sex. He’s very understanding and everytime we do have sex he makes sure it’s because I want to and not because I feel pressured but I still feel bad. Any advice?

Disclaimer: I’m on the pill and antidepressants but my doctors don’t think it’s related.