I’ve been married 2 years now. The first year of my marriage was hell. Feeling like the person I chose to marry hated me and did not care if I would drop dead. I left everything for him. Nothing left but him. Yet he was hurting me in every way possible. I felt I was going mad. Not able to understand how someone could hurt me so bad yet I still had nothing but love for him. I couldn’t understand how he could hurt me if he truly loved me the way he said he did because I could never hurt him. Never. The second year I’ve been working on forgiving him. At times it feels much more difficult than the first year... because now it’s sore and deep deep pain. Sensitive to the touch by the slightest memory.