I feel like if I have to ask, I know the answer. But maybe the details of the situation changes the answer.

“Forced” sex is a kink of mine. My fiancé and I got into a fight the other night. I feel stuck in my relationship for a lot of reasons but I told him I’m no longer in love with him and stuck here and want to talk to other men. The last part was mean and I just wanted to make him realize I was serious because I’ve told him I’m not in love many times before and he seems to not believe it. He came into the room a while after the fight and rolled me over for sex. He had used a bunch of lube so he could slip right in. I asked what he was doing but just laid there and kind of enjoyed the spontaneity but it was still off putting because of the fight we had. He got off quickly and left. After a few minutes I realized he hadn’t used a condom and I’m not on birth control. I had no idea he wasn’t using a condom. He went into the bathroom before he started having sex with me so I assumed he put one on. TRIGGER: I had an abortion 3 months ago. We have 2 kids and I’ve had a long struggle with mental health issues that got out of hand. I got pregnant on the pill. The termination seemed like the best choice for our family. I have been grieving as most people would and he knows that. 2 days before what he did I told him about having an abortion at 12 years old. He is aware of the sexual abuse and rough childhood I had but I didn’t tell him about that before. I feel really sick about this situation. We live out of state from all friends and family. I’m a stay at home mom with no vehicle. No support. No way to get out if I wanted to.

I know this is messy and I really need to get my shit together. Thanks for answering