I feel like I’ve failed him.

Every month that I complain of either nausea or cramping or anything due to what later turns out to be PMS....my boyfriend always assumes I’m pregnant. I always see or hear the disappointment in him when AF finally comes. It’s been 6 months and still nothing. He blames himself and makes little comments here and there that his sperm doesn’t work and there’s something wrong with him bc I have a child and he never has had one. And it just breaks my heart.

I really think it’s a problem on my end. I have hormonal imbalance issues. And my periods are kinda irregular nowadays I just sort of blame myself as well. I’ve been to the doctor but he didn’t tell me much. I assume a simple Gyno will not be enough and I should see a fertility specialist. It’s just a lot of work to do and I wish I could take care of it all faster or in one simple step.

Reading so many stories about couples TTC for years+ terrifies me