When I got pregnant early summer I had so much hope and excitement for mine and my fiancé’s future. But ever since that positive pregnancy test, our relationship has gone drastically downhill. We both wanted this, our baby and to start a family. It just seems like pure bad luck that our relationship fell apart while expecting our first child.

We agreed on a home that he’d purchase for us to have our family in. He’s now in that home that was meant for us and I’ve since moved back into my parents home into what was my old bedroom, now their storage room. There’s hardly enough room for me, let alone a baby. My fiancé has made it clear many times he does not want to give our relationship another try.

I’m at the lowest I’ve ever been during what is supposed to be the happiest time of my life. I can’t enjoy this pregnancy, my baby, nothing. I had my beautiful baby shower yesterday that was planned by my mom and mother in law and it killed me to force a smile at what should have been one of the most enjoyable things about this. I just don’t know how I’ll do this ladies. I wanted a family, not to be a single mother. He took the lead financially in our relationship as well, and now I feel like I have nothing.

I’m feeling so hopeless and like the future is just a dark pit of me being a bitter mother to my daughter and a bitter ex to him.