Failure

I’ve been in therapy from for 3 years from 14-17 (i’m 18 now) years old for sexual abuse as a kid. I thought I would be ok when therapy ended but my life has felt like hell. I am now pregnant and i’m so lost and confused. I’m very embarrassed about telling anyone because everyone was so excited for me to stop therapy because I guess it was an accomplishment to them but to me I still feel like that lost 14 year old girl. Now i’m looking for a new therapist and I’m just so embarrassed for needing help again. I feel like i’m failing my unborn baby already. I am so sad what if i’m not a good mom