Update:

So yesterday he beat me up again pretty bad. The neighbors heard me screaming I guess and called the police. The police came but because the abuse happened in front of my kids they said I would be arrested too, I’m all my kids have and would have no way to be bonded out, so I didn’t press charges. The cops told him to leave and not come back, told me if he did they would arrest him. My friend drove 3 hours to come pick me and my kids up and we are starting over where she lives. My heart is so broken, how could this have happened? I’m pregnant, I’m so in love with him. But I guess this is for the best...

So tonight my man hit me. I guess I hurt his feelings, I wasn’t trying to. But he busted my lip open, and then burned me with his cigarette. I am pregnant with his child.

So after me going psycho because WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO ME?! We’re separating. Our TV is busted; Keurig is smashed. All because I hurt his feelings. My face is black and swollen. The tops of my hands are covered in cigarette burns. I’m just. DONE.

I didn’t call the police. He told me if I did I would be arrested too because he will tell them I hit him. Which i did. In self defense. And he said that they would take my kids who were upstairs in bed asleep.

He chocked me the other night when I tried to leave but apparently now he wants to leave. I found out shortly after that he’s been seeing his best friend (female). I’m so hurt. He’s been calling her all night, is literally in our living room talking to her. I’m in my room crying because I want my husband and I want him to love me and idk why he’s doing this to me. Why he’s doing this to our unborn baby?! To my kids?! I’m so heartbroken.

And please don’t say I’m immature or childish. Or that I sound toxic. I get told that all the time. I’m tired of getting beat on. I’m tired of being cheat on and accused. I’ve stood his back always. I love this man. I always have. I just want my family to be normal and happy.