So this is going to sound really stupid, but just stick with me please?

You see, back when I was really young (about 12), I had this crush on a guy. And for 4 years, I had liked him (two of those years I knew he didn't like me, but that's another story for another day). For a while I was strongly convinced I was in love with him, but slowly I'm moving on away from him. It gets even more problematic because I still constantly daydream about him (it's never sexual or anything, I'm not like that). I hate myself so much for allowing him to always be on my mind, and I still get so nervous around him. Just yesterday I had to talk to him for the first time in months, and I cried because I was reminded of the good and bad times we had together.

The problem is that my stupid little broken heart decided to like another person; while still being super attached to this guy! This person though...they're different. I can actually imagine walking down the aisle and marrying this person, and I actually want to spend the rest of my life with this person. Another problem is that they like someone else (that's another story; let me know if you want to hear that), but I don't know how much they still like that person. I'm pretty sure they still know I like them, they just never talk about it.

At this point I'm so lost and helpless, I don't know what to do or think anymore... Any advice would be greatly appreciated; sorry if this was super long, confusing and/or stupid...