I know this is a BFN

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I have had two miscarriages in 2018 and have been ttc 9 years. Well I took this test this morning and when I looked it had one line but then I saw a sparkle on the test where a second line would be. Taking it as a sign to keep hoping.

About 5 years ago my husband and I decided to skip our church cause it’s just a really hard day to go. We decided to take a trip and we went to a church prayer house. Outside of the prayer house was a garden and a pool of water where I sat and talked to God about what I was going through in regards to infertility. As I sat there a hummingbird came right up to me and stalled in one place for what felt like forever. In that moment I knew God was speaking to me. I knew it was a sign to have hope and perseverance. About a year later I got a hummingbird tattoo on my forearm to serve as a reminder.

Well, last night I had a dream last night that I really feel was God giving me peace and some closure about my two losses.

Dream:

2/10/20

Had a dream I was at my old trailer that I grew up at and a small bug was flying around me at first I was annoyed and thought it was a mosquito but quickly realized it was a very tiny hummingbird. It was yellow, I put out my hand to let it rest on it and it landed on my hand. I started taking pictures of it and had to zoom in really close. Then I went to the back door and let it out and it flew away. Then another hummingbird came to me and I let it rest on my hand. It was a blue and green one with a spatial tail. I then took pictures of it and zoomed in. I felt peace. The two hummingbirds were different types.

It made me think about my two losses. I let praying God would speak to me regarding my babies in heaven.

Anyone relate to getting signs? Would love to hear others stories.