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So like over 2 years ago I was in love with this boy and he was touching me in a room full of people (Everyone was sleeping) I didn’t scream or say stop or no but I grabbed his hand and pulled him off me a couple times and he forced his hand back on to me then he got on top of me and I said no but he still did it and basically had sex with me

Everyone I tell this to says it is rape but then I bring up that I had sex with him three times after this so it kinda changes my mind as in if it was rape or not

But I was in love with him and I was only 14 and I was pretty stupid at the time so idk I need other people opinions