I'm getting a little discouraged. My husband and I have been trying since October and so far nothing 😭 I thought the past few days I've gotten vvvvfl on tests but I guess it was just line eyes. We really wanted our next baby to be close in age with our now 13 month old but if I'm not pregnant by the end of March, I'll have to get back on birth control pills because we don't want to risk having 3 babies born on January 1st or to have the baby be born close to their birthday. Our oldest and our youngest share a birthday. I've had all 3 of our babies early so I'll have to be on birth control pills until around the end of June or July😭 i know I should count my self lucky that we have 3 beautiful babies (we lost one and our youngest is our rainbow) and I don't want to sound selfish but we really do want a 4th one. I've always dreamed of a big family. I just don't understand and I'm freaking out thinking something is wrong because weve had 4 pregnancies total and haven't seemed to have any trouble actually getting pregnant. I'm just getting so discouraged and freaking out thinking we can't have anymore! I'm sorry for the rant, I just wanted to get that out there. Please no rude comments. I know there are people out there that have tried for years and they struggle with getting pregnant even once. My heart aches for them so much. But my heart is aching for myself now too thinking about not having any more precious babies😭😭