Everyday routine for me..

Hi, I hope your having a great day and took time to read this. I am 13 and struggle with self-harm, depression, and lots of anxiety everyday. I’m in 7th grade but it feels like I’m in college already. Anyways, yesterday I was really feeling like a balloon about to pop at school and started cussing out my principal along with other school staff. My mom was there but just shaking her head in the office she was sitting at. I tried running out of the building multiple times but the SRO ( School Resource Officer) caught me most times. CPS got involved and decided to do an evaluation on wether I should go back to a mental hospital ( I went for a month a time before) or to just stay homeschooled. I really just want to get the help I need. My parents think I’m faking because they grew up in places where mental health didn’t exist. I try telling them,” Why would I fake something so serious just to get out of school?” Today the same thing happened, my dad tried dropping me off at school but failed. I started crying and telling him how I don’t trust my therapist. I really struggle with my mental health as you can probably tell.