I’m so over men using me for blow jobs and that only. I’m at the stage where I’m not interested in a relationship but I definitely want to have fun. Fun for me isn’t wasting my time & dolling myself up for me to give a blow job & him to cum and leave.

I used to do it a lot more couple years back but this time around I’m quite over it. I feel like if I’m not going to at least even get sex out of it why am I wasting my time? I’m better off to stay home and masturbate.

Don’t get me wrong I love giving bj’s but it feels quite degrading when guys even bullshit & talk about all the ways their going to fuck you then they see me and it ends at a blow job.

I’m a bigger girl too. BBW. So I’ve always felt maybe I’m not good enough for more or maybe they’re just disgusted to fuck me and it really hurts my feelings a lot.

Don’t get me wrong it’s not like this with every guy there are some decent ones out there but there are HEAPS who have done this to me now.

How do I go about this in the future? How will I know if a guy is truly wanting to fuck me and if not how can I go about it? I don’t want to suggest him to go down on me first cos I’m quite embarrassed but any help is help

Thanks girls