Okay girls, I’m falling for this guy. Idek if he’s falling back.

I’ve been at his for 9 nights now because I was having issues with my housemates, then I lost my keys, but I found them now.

We started this fling on the 23rd of November. He’s not the relationship type. At all. Doesn’t believe you should get in a relationship till youre like 30/40 as he doesn’t believe things last.

His past is dicey af with relationships - he’s had way too many psychos. I mean like, psycho psycho. One of them who’s my ex best friend and incredibly hurt both of us.

I do psychology at uni so I’m as understanding as I can be to his need of no labels and no commitment.

We’ve been sleeping together since Jan 17th. Every couple of days. I drink a lot, he smokes weed a bit. He’s not the toxic kind of guys I’ve had before. He’s always fine with me going out and let’s me come back to his after, tells me to Uber and not walk because it’s dangerous and to call him and wake him when I’m outside so he can get the door. He’s cooked me food and vice versa, always checks I’m okay, tells me to drive safe, protects me - he lives with other boys who are all my mates from uni last year. One of them commented on ice cream in the fridge when we were in the kitchen and he told them it was his, not mine. He’s washed up after he’s cooked. He holds me sometimes when we sleep and vice versa, answers all my questions no matter how drunk and annoying I am. He’s spent hours talking to me at a time when I’ve been pissed and got home.

We both had something happen with other people in January - I was taken advantage of and he kissed a girl outside a club. Not sure if he’s done anything with anyone else since but I have had people kiss me but I don’t wasn’t anyone else anymore. Just him: I’m happy.

But I don’t want to get mugged off. I’m really falling now. There’s so many indicators that he likes me back and I’ve just been going with the flow. I’d say we’re pretty equal. I really want this to work out. Really badly.

But I don’t want to get hurt and I don’t want to rush him if he doesn’t want to get serious, either. Should I step back a bit? Keep doing what I’m doing? Or throw myself in?

Or get him really really drunk and hope he reveals his secrets to me?

I’m not the type to fall for people. I’m not the type to commit. But I really like what we’re doing right now. It just feels like home and I look at him from across the room when we’re doing work, and I just want to hug him. I’ve never had that before.

WHAT ON EARTH DO I DO AND WHY DID I HAVE TO START FALLING FOR SOMEONE WHOS GOT COMMITMENT ISSUES AND THE OPTIMISM OF A GOLD FISH😂😂😭😭❤️

Thanks in advance lovelies xox