On January 14 I got two positive pregnancy tests. This would be my third baby, I was so excited to share the news with my oldest (6year old girl) as she has been begging for another sibling. I went to a local pregnancy clinic and my pregnancy was confirmed. We scheduled an ultrasound for Jan 29th when I would be 6w5d. I felt confident in my dates as I was tracking it all in this app and I know when we had sex. So the 29th came and me and hubby went to my appt. I had a fear that I had miscarried, I had no bleeding but I felt off. I remember being freezing 🥶 cold on and off for a few days and that’s not something I remembered with my other pregnancies. Then, at the appt all we could see was a gestational sac measuring 5w4d. At that point I was worried I had miscarried. The tech said the dates could be a little off, she thought she could see a fetal pole, but said let’s reschedule when the baby is bigger. She told me that if I had a miscarriage I would see a LOT of blood. At this point I had no bleeding so we changed my due date to match the size of the baby, and set the appointment for today 2/12.

The next day I took a pregnancy test because I was still worried I had a miscarriage. The test came back instantly positive. So I pushed my fears aside. On the 5th I had an appt with my primary, she told me to get an appt with my OBGYN. That day I made an appt for Feb 17th for my first official appointment with the OB I would see my entire pregnancy. In the meantime me and hubby ordered sneak peak which is a blood test to reveal baby’s gender at 8weeks. We had picked out shirts for our kids that revealed the new baby. I bought maternity items and a fetal Doppler and we bought some gender neutral baby clothing. I was really tired and bloated, but who isn’t during pregnancy?

On 2/6 I had some pink discharge. I had felt very bloated and just sick. Later that day I felt a gush and a cramp. I went to the bathroom and there was bright red blood with a small clot in it. Not a lot just about a tablespoon. I texted hubby at work and he said ER. I didn’t want to go. I wasn’t bleeding heavy or consistently. I called the nurse hotline on my insurance. She said I should call my OB and get an appt within 24hours. The rest of that day I was spotting a very small amount of brownish discharge. The next morning (2/7) I drove to my OB and they couldn’t see me because of insurance. I went to the er- they ran blood tests and performed an ultrasound. They diagnosed me with a threatened miscarriage. I should have been 8 weeks according to my LMP- 7 weeks according to the first ultrasound. The ER hid the ultrasound machine. But when I was discharged I was given a report on the ultrasound. I had a gestational sac measuring 5 weeks 4 days. No fetal pole (heart beat) I did not believe the diagnosis. I believed I had a silent miscarriage? Where the baby dies but your body doesn’t expel it right away. So then 2/8 I began passing chunks of tissue, lots of brown clots, coffe ground type of stuff. Weird things I’ve never seen come out. I was passing clots and tissue since that first gush of red blood. Now it’s like a period.

My question is, can I use a tampon? I’ve read it’s not recommended. But I’m no longer passing clots or tissue or old brown blood. It’s fresh red period type blood. Is it possible I’m having my period after the miscarriage? Has anyone used tampons this soon after miscarrying?

On a side note my husband is the only one who knew I was pregnant and the only one who knows I had a miscarriage. I’m okay, but definitely a bit sad as I think I may not be able to carry a baby to full term. I fear I won’t be able to have a third baby. I wonder why my baby didn’t make it. I’m sad that I won’t get to tell my litter girl she will be a big sister again. Anyway, advice or encouragement is appreciated. Thank you for reading this far if you made it to this point haha. Now I will understand miscarriage because I’m a part of this club, a club I never hoped to be in.