So I can really use some advice about whether or not I should stay at home with my kids or find a job

The background story is I have 2 babies 16 month and 2 months. I am currently on maternity leave but I just got laid off (entire department eliminated so it’s legal) I never planned on being a SAHM but I am kind of worried about finding a new job. My previous job was very flexible with me. I had 4 weeks PTO plus sick days. Any time I had a drs apt for myself/my kids it was approved. If my son was ever sick I could leave no problem. I’m not sure if a new job would be so flexible with me, especially as a new employee. Plus my daycare is right near my old job so unless I find something close to there, I need to find a new daycare, and most daycares have waiting lists.

My husband does make enough money for me to stay home but things will be tight. I really don’t want to start fighting about money and being stressed out all the time. With us both working we were in a really good financial position.

When I was working after my first was born, I really did have a hard time. After work was so stressful, getting home after 6, making dinner, doing bath time, cleaning up. But I’ve been on maternity leave for 2 months, and it’s been very isolating at times. I really don’t know what to do. I know that deep down inside I really would like to stay home and watch my babies grow, time is going so fast and these days I’ll never get back, but I’m also concerned the financial strain might hurt my marriage 😔