Well, February has marked a year of TTC for us. Negative test this morning CD 29 11 dpo (give or take a day or two) and I'm cramping so I know AF is on her way. I've done everything I possibly could do, OPKs, fertility lube, I take vitamins, eat moderately healthy and keep active. Same with my husband. Just don't know why it hasn't happened yet.

I have been checked for PCOS and endometriosis in the past because I had irregular cycles and painful periods. My ultrasounds showed my uterus and ovaries were fine. I even had a diagnostic lap with excision for endometriosis. I had a paratubal cyst removed and 6 suspected endo removed but pathology showed no signs of endo. I was relieved. After my lap my periods returned to normal and I hardly have any pain with my periods anymore. So we decided to NTNP. Well, I didn't conceive after a few months and I discovered OPKs would help me track my ovulation better. I know the general window when I ovulate now and have tried SMEP but yet I still haven't conceived. I am so worried if it's me. I'm also worried if it's my husband. Scheduling appointments soon..

I truly didn't think it would be this hard to conceive because sex ed said it was easy. All of my friends have children or are pregnant. Nobody knows we're trying. We want to surprise our families. I know that we haven't been trying as long as some but it has been a year and it's really hard to think about. We could've conceived and had a baby by now or at least been pregnant, but we aren't and that hurts my heart.

I'm truly sorry that this post is long and if anything sounds insensitive. I'm just really heartbroken and needed to vent somewhere.