i need advice

okay so i am 16 and not a virgin. i’m looking to exploring with sex toys for fun, but i am very close with my mom and i’m not sure how i would keep this from her, or if i told her how she would react.

i read on lots of accounts on instagram that i shouldn’t be ashamed of wanting to explore but i tell my mom everything and i feel like she would be mad if i bought a dildo or something. i actually want to buy one though. help me out please what should i do!??