We’ve just come home from my daughter’s 9 mo wellness check and I am shattered. I feel like such a shitty mom. My daughter has fallen off her growth curve. Between 6 mo and 9 mo she has only gained 5oz, grown .25” and her head size remains the same. The pediatrician was not terribly concerned but said as long as she is not at 2nd percentile (she’s at 15 for weight and 6 for growth and head), as long as I up her food intake she should be ok. Daughter was EBF until 6 months when we started introducing some solids. I even started supplementing with a bit of formula once a day. I am crushed that perhaps my sweet girl was not getting enough breastmilk and for the last three months I’ve been unknowingly under feeding her. I am terrified that I have caused this failure to thrive which would in turn stunt her growth and cause future problems for her. How could I do this to her? I thought I was doing my absolute best and to think that I have been depriving her is killing me. She is hitting other milestones, the only one she’s behind on is pulling to stand and sitting herself up. But she will pull herself to a sitting position if we give her our hands to hold. She can bear weight down on her legs, although recently it has taken some coaxing.

Anyway, not sure what the point of my post is. I guess I just needed an outlet. My husband is ok with everything as long as the pediatrician is ok, but I am not ok. I know she’s a medical professional but I also know that my daughter was consistently putting on 2lbs, and growing 2in, 2cm at every appointment up until this one. So this was a huge blow to me.

If anyone has some experience with this please lmk.

If you made it to the end, thanks for reading 😔