I know out of all the women on here, maybe hundreds, even thousands, someone knows what I'm going through. Long story short: married husband, husband relapsed in his addiction (I did not know existed beforehand), husband prostitutes to support addiction (including one time flings but not limited to multiple other relationships in which he stated he was "getting divorced" to vulnerable women who'd finance his habit out of "love"), husband's addiction lead to unsavory company, and husband ends up incarcerated. Now he's clean and recognizes the damage he's created, writing letters about "butterfly" feelings but problem is that I don't feel that way. I'm not sure I can ever feel that way. I love him but his addiction destroyed all "butterfly" feelings. We're trying to salvage all that's left but that being said, I'm not "in love" barely let alone have any love at all left. I don't need people to tell me to leave, I'm finding my way.... The question exists; can I maintain a relationship for someone that I'll never feel "butterflies" for? Can he be in recovery when he's in a relationship with me?

PS. I'd really like a recovering addict to weigh in. I need to understand his journey from his point of view. I need to know if there's a real turning point/realization in the process of recovery and if it's possible to be in recovery within a relationship where he did nothing but get high?

PS #2. I don't get high, never did and when I met him he was clean. We have a son in common and to me, idc if we don't work but I need him to be good for our son's sake. I need my son to know he can be better than his father was in his addiction.