So I’ve decided to boycott males because I’m tired of my emotions lol. I’m really uncomfortable with my body in general (sexual trauma, body dysmorphia) especially down there. I have tried masturbating before but it just feels strange. I have been thinking about investing in a vibrator but they’re expensive and also they kinda scare me. Also, I started touching myself down there in elementary school like I’d just lay down on my stomach, put my hands around my V, and like thrust..lmao idk like it feels really good but is that weird??? I’ve definitely had orgasms doing this so I guess it doesn’t matter lol. Idk why the hell I was doing it as a lil kid...I would literally do it when watching cartoons and fantasize about being punished like when a character got in trouble...I wonder what Freud would have to say about this 🥴 anyways I just need advise but also I’ve never talked about masturbation with others before I’m just sick of having a bad relationship with my body!! I don’t want to have to be with a man just to be sexually satisfied!!!