so i’ve only slept with one person ever. we were in a long term relationship and i was so comfortable with him i didn’t even care. he’s seen my body go through pregnancy and all kinds of changes. now that we’re not together i feel so insecure showing anyone else my body specifically because of the acne. it covers my back shoulder butt and thighs. there’s less actual acne and more so just marks from it but i still do get the bumps on the back of my thighs mostly.

i find it sooooo unattractive and dirty looking and can only imagine it’s such a turn off. some of the marks are so dark. ugh i just hate it and want to get rid of it but i feel like i’ll be stuck with the marks forever. i at least want to stop getting the bumps. i don’t understand why i still get them. i exfoliate and moisturize and the good care of my body, eat relatively healthy. it’s not as much as a problem on my face even though i do get the occasional breakout.

i’m considering going on a bc pill approved for acne as a last resort even though i just got switched to a new pill because i have bad luck with them. it’s not approved for acne but it’s a combination pill so i’m crossing my fingers it helps even a little. ughhhhh i’m just so insecure. i can’t wear shorts or bathing suits or anything backless or sometimes not even tank tops or spaghetti straps. and i love my body just not the marks. help :(