Hi everyone,

We just found out today that we are pregnant. A TOTAL surprise. Blessing and miracle. We had struggled with our first, and I know pregnancies are nothing to take for granted.

Still, our son is 2, and if I spend too much time thinking about him, I am overwhelmed with guilt. Like the painful heartache kind of sadness that it isn’t just the three of us anymore.

My husband and I are six years older than our brothers, so I know I don’t have the perspective of close siblings. And I knowwwwww it is such a gift for him. But, I am wondering if anyone else may be sharing the rejoicing heart feelings with heartache-y guilt? And, more importantly, what do you actually do in that moment? I have found myself near tears several times today just looking at him.

I think if we were planning and actively trying I would feel a little differently, and perhaps the shock of the day is coming into play as well. We hadn’t really decided we were ready. We are faithful people and I trust that God has planned this for us, but I am still struggling - and it’s only day 1!!!

Any advice please and thank you! Happy October Babies to all! 💙