My ex once told me that I was broken and no good because my vagina wouldn’t get wet for him and because I kept saying that he was “hurting me” but the reality was that I just didn’t like it and couldn’t think of any other reason he’d stop , he was the one that took my virginity. I ended up having some regret about it because I had a pregnancy scare and I really felt like he took advantage of me cus I told him I didn’t really want to but he kept making remarks and taking my clothes off. It might have been my fault for putting myself in that position but He was pushing the subject so much I convinced myself I wanted it until we actually started. Later on I didn’t really think what he said and what we did bothered me until now I’m always hesitant with sexual contact even if it’s with the person I love and I stopped eating as much (my mom thinks I was punishing myself ) which resulted in me losing 15 lbs. After I have sex I don’t like to be touched and I withdraw myself from my partner...I don’t know what to do to get over this.