I’ll try to keep this as short as possible!

On 2/10/2020 I was originally scheduled to be induced due to diabetes (1 day before my due date) my doctor ended up rescheduling it to see if I could labor on my own since my sugars were great and I was mainly diet controlled. That Monday the 10th my husband took me to our fav burger shack before my last NST appt. When I finished eating and got up my water broke! I literally just started laughing non stop and told my husband like holy fuck this is it. We’re having a baby. The look on his face was sooo priceless but he was excited. I called the hospital and I get there an hour later. When they swabbed for amniotic fluid, it came back negative but the nurse refused to send me home ( god bless her ). My plan was no epidural but I got fentanyl when I hit 2 cm like a dumbo cause when that wore off I was only at 3 cm and contractions hit me like a truck. Oh man they hurt soooo bad 😭😭 when I got to 4 I said yeah no give me that epidural! My poor husband cried with me during my contractions because it hurt to see me in so much pain. He held me through my epidural and I didn’t see the needle but the look on his face was sooo funny lmao as soon as I got the epidural I took a nap right away. 2 hours later the nurse comes to check me and being half asleep I just do what she says and next thing she does is she closes my legs real tight and goes never mind ur crowning. She tells me to hang in there as she calls for my doctor and all the nurses. My husband was dead asleep but shot up the moment everyone was rushing around. They tell him to get over here cause mama is having a baby like now and he runs up and grabs my hand and we both just look at each other half asleep and we didn’t say anything but we were reading each other’s cues. At this point the epidural was wearing out and I have never been so scared in my life. I was not ready to feel a baby coming out of my vagina 😩 the doctor got there and watching so many YouTube videos I started pushing once he propped my legs up and said whenever I was ready. My beautiful daughter came out in 3 pushes and my doctor believed I had another child lmao YouTube works wonders nowadays! Another thing I learned was the ring of fire is DEF a thing ohman. I would do it ALL over again for our beautiful baby girl. She came in at 8 pounds 6 oz on her due date 2/11/2020 @ 3:40 am and the moment they put her on my chest and we locked eyes for the first time is a feeling I can’t even explain 💘💘💘

Oh and labor is worse than actual delivery!! So for other ftms don’t be scared our bodies were meant for this and there are meds to help you get through it (if that’s your route) one day I’ll be able to hold out longer than 4 cm and go natural all the way. But I have no regrets and in a way I’m glad it wore off by the time I started pushing cause that’s a feeling I never knew would make me feel like such a “strong mama” 😭💕 (as my husband says)