How do you deal with it when you have no one to talk to. January 4 I found out I was pregnant while at the doctors office. I was so happy because finally after 2 years I was getting my baby. February 12 I had a normal prenatal appointment and I brought up the fact that I was spotting bright red and cramping on my right side. They scheduled me for an ultrasound the very next morning. February 13 as the tech is doing her measurements of baby I can already see there is no heartbeat and baby is measuring 8 weeks when I should be 9 weeks and 4 days then. I was given my options. Go home and wait to see if it will pass on it’s own which they thought was unlikely since it’s already been almost two weeks since baby died. A pill to start the miscarriage process. Or schedule for surgery to remove baby. I opted for surgery knowing I didn’t want to risk seeing baby if it passed on it’s own. But how do you deal with it when you’re alone. I’m fine when my boyfriend is with me it’s like I can just shut it out but now at 6:47 am when he’s at work and I should be at work how do you deal with it then. I’m fine around people and I can talk about it and I feel okay but I feel like no one understands and the only person that does understand stopped talking to me when my boyfriend and I started dating so I can’t go to her. What do you do when all you wanna do is lay there crying holding the ultrasound of when your baby still had a heartbeat was still alive and okay.