Just need to vent. I had issues with breastfeeding my first (he would fall asleep, latch fine, but little suck and swallow, so had trouble gaining weight). As a result I ended up exclusively pumping for 7 months and still had to supplement because I never made enough. It was terrible and emotional and I didn’t want to do that again with my second.

I was determined to be successful this time around and everything seemed to be going well. My newborn latched like a pro and plenty of wet & dirty diapers, so I thought we were in the clear. However we just got back from the pediatrician and he’s still not back up to birth weight at 18 days. The good news is, he IS gaining (unlike my first son), just very slowly - about a half ounce per day (instead of the ounce they like to see). So my pediatrician said to pump after every feeding and give him whatever I pump to try and up his calories. I just pumped for 15 minutes and got ZERO out of one side and less than 1/2 ounce out of the other. I feel like my body is failing me. Why can’t I make enough to feed my child? I can’t go through exclusively pumping again. I know mentally I can’t put myself through that again. I’m just so upset and frustrated. I thought everything was going so well and turns out I’m still not able to produce what I need. I’ve already been through all the things to increase supply (power pumping, blue Gatorade, fenugreek, lactation foods, oatmeal, brewers yeast, etc) and nothing ever worked. I’m just so disappointed.