My babies 1st valentines day. Started off good. Stepkids had a snow make up day. Mom stopped by with goodies. All I wanted to do was get cleaned up. Bathe the baby. Get her dressed in her valentines outfit and clean up the house. I haven't heard from hubby since he left for work. Been sad about that. He has mandatory ot this weekend and its kids here this weekend. Plus no school Monday. Stepkids don't pick up after themselves with anything. Tried to bathe baby in sink but she wouldn't sit down. Ended up moving to the big tub with her. Then she fought me trying to get her dressed and about gave up. The day is about shot, as stepkids will be getting home shortly. Ready to eat all the food and leave all the mess. Then they tear up the already trashed house. They've all been sick and I'm trying so hard to keep me n baby healthy, which means staying in our room mostly. I just can't take hearing all the complaining and bickering and everyone talking at the same time and I'm wearing so thin and its not fair to my baby. 6 people in a 2 bedroom apt is taking its toll on me I don't know what to do sometimes or how or why to keep trying. I get no chance to recharge myself or get this house into a functional state and I can't stop crying and this freaking sucks. That is all. End of rant. Thanks for reading if you got this far.