Sad day

For quite awhile, I’ve been hoping my time would come and I’d be able to tell my boyfriend that I’m finally pregnant on Valentine’s Day. Well, this morning I had a dream that I didn’t know I was pregnant until I had a miscarriage at 6 months. I woke up devastated. I’ve been on fertility medicine that has been working since September. I’m so upset and so tired of waiting. It’s killing me. I’m depressed, unmotivated and just sad all the time. I just want to be pregnant 😭 idk what I did to be punished like this but I’m truly sorry for whatever it was.